it's over.

dear blogger,

i'm pretty sure we're breaking up...

i've got this free trial at typepad.

and i'm going to see what it does for me.

hopefully, i maintain my usual couple of readers, at least.

and gain some in the process.

if it doesn't work out with them, i'll be back.

kthanks,

lydia.

so, find me at girlybones.typepad.com

please come see me.

:(

sayonara.

josh and i have to put our cats up for adoption.

sort of.

we have to get rid of them til josh gets an apartment.

currently, we live in a music venue...ha.

and the guy he rents from found out, and is super ticked.

it's kinda sad. :(

i'll miss them!

i did two new paintings last night.

i am absolutely in love with one of them.

she's different from my usual.

it's reminiscent of when i met josh, on halloween, two years ago.

i was a little indian girl. (as in native american.)

i've been drinking this guava mango juice as if there is no tomorrow.

but, it's real good.

try some!

boys wanna be her.

"boys wanna be her" by peaches.

i don't know about everyone else, but this song just makes me feel like a complete and total badass.

and obviously, i mean, CLEARLY, the song was written about me.

at least, that's how i feel when i listen to it.

a girl can dream!

money is against me.

for the second time, in roughly a month, i'm going to be missing a ton of work.

from a financial standpoint, i'm hating life.

i wish i didn't have to rely on kroger for money and a job.

i want to work for myself.

doing only things i love.

someday this will happen. or else. (rlstine.)

my boyfriend has been on the phone with his bff, jason for over an hour now.

this is pretty much a daily thing.

they're obviously dating behind my back.

(not joking. i wouldn't be surprised.)

(okay, i'm a little joking.)

(very joking. i think.)

dear profile,

please make yourself cute.

please and thank you.

love,

lydia.

shelley duvall.

last night, beluga and i watched "the shining."

i'd never seen it before, and i guess i'm glad i can now say that i have.

he didn't like it at all.

but, i did for the most part. obviously, some of it is a little cheesy and ridiculous.

hellooo, it was 1980.

but, the influence of this post isn't the movie at all, but shelley duvall.

while watching the movie, i just couldn't decide how i felt about her.

if i thought she was beautiful or too odd for me.

in the end, i did a search for her on google images.

and i decided that she's pretty much a doll, especially in her younger years.

OINK.

josh and i got the swine flu.

awesome. right?

our cases aren't as bad as they could be, tho.

we have the respiratory kind, also.

mine is just cough, sore throat, and super severe headaches.

it still really sucks, tho.

but, it comes and goes.

i am glad that we're sick together, tho. and we don't have to be apart.

so, we're quarantined together for the next week, or so.

last night, i watched the documentary "Born Into Brothels."

it was completely heartbreaking.

i just can't believe the fact that things like that happen in this world.

and it honestly makes me so pissed off at myself for ever being ungrateful for all the wonderful things i have, or complaining over stupid, small things that any of those kids would be so happy to have.

and hearing the wisdom in these children's voices, children as young as 10 years old, just sets something off in me. i can't even explain it.

i hate the feeling of wanting to do something so bad, but not knowing what i can do. you know?

but when i hear a little boy, say about a little girl in his school that he knows her fate is prostitution and he just "wants to rescue her and take her away." i know that something needs to be done. obviously.

it's so tough.

sold!

i sold two paintings tonight!

i'm so excited.

these were my first sales.

i'm real happy.

i can't wait to get some stuff put up on etsy.

i hope it'll do well.

:)

i changed my story once again.

i went back to my very original idea.

my illustrations are crap.

but, the story's pretty cute.

i just don't even care anymore.

i want the stress to be gone.

i'm really hungry and weak feeling.

i just now realized, while eating some dark chocolate reese's, that i haven't eaten today.

that's no good.

I'M STARVING.